didnt blog ystrday nite..
coz too tired..
basically ystrday whole day busy with the Lifearts performance..
dunwanna talk abt it..
nthmuch too..
as for today..
had lessons..
was feelin rather lethargic..
den skipped de 12noon lesson..
was outside CO rm with Jolyn...
den Samuel came...
i received an sms that lead me to scold n scold....
talked to Samuel..
and get some of my pts to him..
duno if he understand what i mean..
but..
i am realli pissed le..
i tried all means..
but this is what i gt..
if u are out there juz to make my life difficult...
den SCRAM!!
coz u can nv succeeD!!
i maybe weak in relationship problems..
but i can be as heartless as u are!
I CAN JUST TREAT AS IF I HAD NEVER HAVE U AS MY FREN BEFORE!!
coz of being de President..
i lost almost everything..
if this is what u wan..
YES U SUCCEEDED!!!
but so?!!
thru this i oso realise that all the so called FRIENDSHIPS are never REAL!!
i will juz treat everything as a lesson...
price are to be paid for lessons!!!
and i have paid it!
so SCRAM!!
after that went for lesson...
den went back CO rm...
went to makan at Bedok today..
with Leng, Jolyn, Chaoyong, Jonathan, Mayfern..
den after that go hme alone..
was on de phone with Leng juz nw..
felt veri guilty towards her..
coz makin her in such difficult position..
once again trapped in between 2 parties..
sorry...
i realli cant take all this anymore..
i will burst anytime..
dun be surprise if one day i gonna burst infront..
coz i am a human too..
i do have feelings..
ya...
bloggie..
i felt so helpless nw...
on one hand i felt so depressed, useless abt everything..
feeling so naive...
thinking that everthing is over after a few days..
thinking that the frenship is nt as weak as it is actually..
on the other..
i felt so pissed..
i felt so frustrated with his doings..
why cant he juz grow up?!!
why is that those that i always thought will stand by me doin all these to me instead...
i realli dun understand..
i am veri "luan"..
veri veri....
when is all these gonna end?!
or rather..
will there be an endin...
when i was about to move on with life..
things start crashing hard on me again..
why...
why mux u choose to leave me durin my most difficult times....
sorry.....
i still miss u...
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